Can I take a minute to complain about my love life?
Ugh I hate everything
Up until recently I had been talking to this guy a lot. Initially he gave me a lot of ~I like you vibes~ but then kept going out with crazy bitches. I really liked him, but I guess I’m not upfront enough ( lol he was used to dating crazies/really upfront girls) so he just wasn’t getting that I liked him, wanted to get in his pants etc.So I started flirting a bit and it scared him away, but he still acted pretty ‘coupley’ with me I guess because half of my friends thought we were dating.
I thought he was close to asking me out, (kept teasing me about asking me out etc) but he’s just so fucking desperate. He keeps asking out random girls, who end up being 17 half the time (which creeps me out to be honest). I was lurking his facebook about 3 weeks ago and found out that this girl he told my bff about, whom he had ‘decided to try to get back with’, is a drug addict who just got out of jail. I don’t care that they were high school sweethearts or whatever, but that was 3 years ago, and she’s a piece of trash. It GETS BETTER. She lives in Ohio, and isn’t moving back to LA. Basically he’s unrealistic, delusional, and doesn’t know what he wants or needs.
Over the course of a week, I kept crying and eating my feelings- it felt like a break up without us even officially getting together. I can’t believe he finds that shit attractive- and it hurt and put me off so much that when he sort of asked me out on a date I said no, because he sounds so fucking desperate and I’d rather not be anyone’s last resort. I never get irl crushes on anyone, so I’m convinced that I’m going to die alone. It’s rare that I even find friends that get me, or that I don’t feel are judging me (I’ll go into this later), and I felt like I had known him all my life, but now he just looks like a shit bag to me.
